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Searching for My “Silver Springs”

Hi, everyone! It’s time to switch things up. Instead of my usual book promos, I’d like to take a moment to share a piece of original writing with you. This essay was featured in the 2016 anthology Everything I Need to Know About Love I Learned from Love Songs (buy it here). Enjoy!

Searching for My “Silver Springs”

As a girl raised by “older” parents, it should come as no surprise that my perspective on love was a lot different than that of my peers raised in the 1990s. While my friends were swooning over the Titanic soundtrack, I was working my way through my family’s extensive vinyl collection. I would ultimately discover the awesome glory that is Fleetwood Mac, and the lyrics of Stevie Nicks. The song “Silver Springs” has become a favorite of mine as I have reached adulthood and, honestly, I can think of nothing more tragically romantic than unfulfilled love.

I tore through the Fleetwood Mac catalogue in middle school and learned more about love and loss from the Rumors album than I (still) have in my own romantic life. The 1997 live cut of the song is my favorite version, as the voices of the band have deepened and the overall tempo is slowed. If the original album cut was a bleeding wound, this version is a slow sort of ache, remembered only in the darkest of times.

To this day, I find myself nearly howling the words out loud every time that I hear it on the radio, and I have to stifle the urge to engage in passionate sing-alongs with passing strangers. In the most intense moments, I am the wounded heroine burdened with righteous fury. In quieter times, I find that “Silver Springs” creates a sort of nostalgic melancholy for the unknown.


Throughout my girlhood and early adult years, I related to the sting of love lost and the sometimes obsessive desire for closure. Some of my favorite novels and films feature the same sort of desperate pain and longing found in the lyrics.

With “Silver Springs,” our narrator is both melancholic and vengeful. She reflects on a life that might have been, just as she wishes a sort of lover’s curse on her former partner, all with the same tender phrasing and whispering voice. My mental music video features a modern witch singing into her crystal ball as she looks into a future she might have had with her lover.

I saw the band perform the song live on my 24th birthday, and the moment was a nearly religious experience. As I lost myself in the sound, I realized just how much the song had influenced my love life. In every relationship that I had from high school and beyond, I was searching for a love as deep and intense as the one demonstrated in “Silver Springs.” Even as I worked my way through various breakups, nothing felt as bad as what Stevie was singing about. After my longest relationship ended, everyone around me was disturbed by the fact that I hadn’t shed a single tear. My mother even encouraged me to take a few days away from everything and try to make myself cry. In the end, “Silver Springs” helped me to face my problems and allow myself to grieve for the love that might have been.

The song’s final chorus is just as powerful as any R&B ballad. With the help of Stevie and Fleetwood Mac, I learned that in love it is best to keep an open mind and an open heart. I hope to find my own “Silver Springs” kind of man one day – if only to curse him with memories of our love.


Copyright 2016 – Rebecca Ayers- ButtonTapper Press

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Cover Reveal! The West Woods

I’d never judge a book by its cover but this one is certainly beautiful!
The West Woods
by Suzy Vadori
Genre: YA Fantasy
Courtney Wallis wants nothing more than to escape St. Augustus boarding
school. After uncovering a well-kept secret about the school’s
founder, Isaac Young, Courtney turns to the school’s magic to
convince her dad to let her leave. Things take a turn when she meets
Cole, who lives in the nearby town of Evergreen. He gives her hope
that things might not be so bad. However, the fountain has other
ideas, and binds Courtney to her ambition, no matter the cost.
As Courtney struggles to keep the magic from taking over, she and her
friends get drawn into the mystery woven into the school’s fabric.
Everything seems to lead back to the forbidden West Woods. Together,
she and her friends seek out the spirits of the past to ask for help,
and find themselves in much deeper than they’d bargained for. If
they succeed, Courtney could be free of the magic. If they fail, she
may never be the same.
Suzy Vadori is an Operations executive by day, Writer by night. The
Fountain is her debut novel for Young Adults. Suzy is an involved
member of the Calgary Writers’ community, service as Program Manager
for Young Adult at When Words Collide (a Calgary festival for readers
and Writers) since 2013. Suzy lives in Calgary, Alberta, Canada with
her husband and three kids.
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Spotlight: Keys to the Mermaid’s Heart


Title: Keys to the Mermaid’s Heart

Author: Kate Porter

Genre: Urban Fantasy/Paranormal Romance

Release Date: April 30th, 2016

Team Nightly, Book Three


Gordon Charles, King of the Vampires, wants The Mermaid’s Heart and will do whatever it takes to get it. Including kill Carly Harden.

As a member of Team Nightly, Tony Sargento’s sworn duty is to protect innocents from the growing vampire army. As head chef and manager of The Blue Mermaid Restaurant, Carly is more than just his head waitress, whether he wants her to be or not.

Now that the vampire king has set his sights on gaining possession of The Mermaid’s Heart, a huge sapphire purported to have magical properties, and the key that Carly has worn on a chain around her neck since she was a little girl, she is in more danger than ever. The key, her family legend tells, is one of three that unlocks a lost treasure chest that holds The Mermaid’s Heart. A treasure she believes is hidden somewhere in Savannah, GA.

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“Is it safe to come out now?”

The sound of Chuck’s voice as he took the last step that brought him into what had, only moments before, been a battle arena, was anything but fearful. He sounded as though he was trying to suppress a fit of laughter.

Tony looked at his friend and shook his head dejectedly. “Jesus, Chuck. What the hell’s the matter with me?”

“I was about to ask you the same question, boyo. You really screwed the pooch that time, didn’t you?”

Chuck shook his head as he made his way to the coffee pot. He lifted the empty carafe and held it up for Tony to inspect.

“You didn’t even save me a drop?” Chuck complained, giving the carafe another shake, a look of hope in his moss green eyes. “Ah, well. I guess after the morning you had, you needed it more than I did. I’ll just take my caffeine cold and have a Coke. I prefer it over coffee anyway.”

Chuck gave Tony one of his ever-present, always charming grins, and continued. “We can have a seat and you can tell Uncle Chuck all about what happened. What made a normally sane and rational man act like a braying jackass?”

“I don’t want to talk about it, Chuck. The early shift is starting to set up the dining area for weekend brunch and the line cook will be here any minute.”

Tony started back to his office, hesitated and then spun around to face the only man he could truly talk to. He know whatever was said would go no farther. Even though the place wouldn’t open its doors until ten thirty for The Blue Mermaid’s weekend brunch special, he was reluctant to talk to anyone about what he’d done to Carly.

He hated making a scene. Doing just that in front of Scarlett and Rhett, was bad enough, but knowing that Chuck had heard his absurd behavior was downright humiliating. He didn’t want to consider what his employees would think if they heard him and Chuck discussing something so personal.

Then again, he decided, when Chuck was taken into your confidence, he would take his vow of silence to the grave.

He dropped his head, shaking it in disbelief at his own arrogance as he asked. “Am I just channeling Carly’s emotions?”

“And why would you be thinking that?”

“Because  . . . she . . . I feel . . . Rhett . . .” He huffed out a breath and his shoulders sagged like a balloon losing all of its air.

“You know, Tony,” Chuck said with a snigger. “If you finish even one of those thoughts, I might be able to answer your question.”

He sighed and clapped Chuck on the shoulder. “Let’s both have a Coke and sit at the bar.” He headed into the other part of the restaurant. “No one will disturb us.  If anyone sees me in the office we’ll never have any privacy.”

Kate Porter Author Portrait1About the Author:

For as long as I can remember, I have had one true passion, even as a young girl: writing. Poetry and short stories were my pleasure and my escape while growing up on a small farm approximately fifty miles south of Indianapolis. From my first short story printed in my high school newspaper at the age of fifteen, until the publication of my debut novel, SECRETS IN BETHLEHEM, in the summer of 2012, I have dreamed of being an author.

As the recipient of the 2014 New Apple Book Award Medal for the Mystery Category and a two time winner of the Indie Book of the Day award, I have explored several different genres in my writing career, (They say variety is the spice of life and I believe that to be the case). I have an eclectic taste in my own reading material as well. I have studied fiction writing at Greenville Tech, in Greenville, SC and traveled to Georgia for a writing workshop with my best friend.

But one of my biggest thrills was when I was profiled in WOMAN’S DAY magazine (as seen in the photo above). When my hometown newspaper, in Spencer, Indiana did a front page, feature article after my first book was published, I knew my dream had come true.

I can’t not write. There are so many stories just waiting to be written, what else can a writer do? Besides, I love books!

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Love The One You’re With


I have some exciting news to share! A personal essay of mine will be featured in a new book entitled “Everything I Need to Know About Love I Learned From Pop Songs”. To quote the editor of the book, we’re just going to call this thing “Pop Songs” for the rest of the post to save my fingers. “Pop Songs” will feature 13 essays from writers of every sort of romantic persuasion that share the common thread of how a song has influenced their views on love. Spoiler alert: mine is about a Stevie Nicks song. The book is available for digital pre-order here and will be released on Valentine’s Day.

Also, I just signed up for the OwlCrate monthly book subscription service. I’m super excited about receiving my magical monthly reads and plan on writing unboxing posts every month. That’s it for now. I hope you all are having a great 2016 so far.